Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Its that time again.  I have been testing with OPKs since Saturday.  I went in this past monday (27th) for a follicle/lining check.  I was worried that maybe my issue was lining.  And, with this being the 3rd month of clomid, I wouldn't have barely any lining.  Well, CD14 and my lining was 9.9.  I had a couple of follicles.  My leading follicle was a 19.  So, everything is right on track.  This was todays OPK.

I had planned on triggering today even if the OPK wasn't very dark.  But, that test is def +.  So, yay!  
With that I pulled all my stuff for my trigger.
 We have IUIs scheduled for tomorrow and friday.  I am hoping since this is happening so late in my cycle this time, that maybe it will help for the egg to be a bit more mature than the past months.   Doing the crinone again this time.  

Hopefully this isn't a roller coaster like the last 2 months.  No more rollercoasters.  

love to all!!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Clomid is the devil

I am done with clomid.  FOREVER!  No more.  Whew!  This last go around has been rough.  I feel bi-polar.  And, super bitchy.  LOL  I am sure everyone else agrees with me.  Haha.
Went to the dentist today , and found out I have a cracked tooth.  Its going to cost me $500 to fix it.  So, I came home and cried.  Ya, my hormones are a mess right now.

I start OPKs this saturday.  I will make a appt for Monday for a follicle check and a lining scan.

Lets hope for the best.

Friday, January 17, 2014

One last hurrah

Had blood work done on Wed.  They did my FSH, and AMH.  My FSH came back great.  Only a 6.9.  The AMH takes a few days to come back.  So, I won't have that until monday.  The issue with this, is that the FSH can be a good #, but the AMH can be bad.  And, the bad wins.  Doesn't matter how good the other is.

With that news, my IFs want to try one more time.  My Dr doesn't want to change a thing.  He had the nurse call me.  I personally think I got lost in the shuffle.  I think he forgot about our conversation the day before.  I called today with another question about lining.  I knew he was out of the office.  I thought maybe we should do some kind of estrogen to build my lining.  Who knows what the issue was last month.  But, clomid is known for thinning your lining.  The nurse told me that if I don't have a thick lining they would cancel the IUI. Well, don't you think you would try and keep a eye on that ahead of time.  I am going to make a appt on the Monday before we do the IUIs for a follicle/lining check.  We didn't do that last cycle because it was Xmas eve and they were only open a few hours.   Well, this time, we have nothing going on.  Just normal life.  So, maybe it will happen?  I don't know.

This is their money, and they want to try again, so here we go.  I started clomid last night.  Once the nurse called me and said my FSH was good, and the guys said yes, it was GO time.  They had my prescriptions called in within 30 min.  This was 2 different pharmacies.  That in itself was impressive.  So, when I got home last night.  I ordered more OPKs, HPTs, and Crinone gel.  And, sent in the CC info for my trigger shot.  Whew.  Nothing like last minute.

I am crossing my fingers.  This is my last chance to get pregnant without missing my race in Nov.  If we get preg this cycle, I would be due in Oct.  But, I guess we have to get through this part first.

On other news.  I just finished reading the book Inconceivable.  Have you read it?  OMG.  Heart breaking.  I actually talked to the IM a couple of years ago about being a GS for them.  She is a wonderful lady.  Things didn't work out because we both had the same kind of Pre-E, and the Dr thought it would be a bad combination.  But, just reading that book, it holds a lot of truths for surrogates.  The going through pregnancy and having no baby afterwards.  Working against your biological demands afterwards.  Being happy the baby is here, but a feeling of loss afterwards.  Of course, there are differences, since the surrogate isn't looking to add to her family and didn't have a IVF screw up.  But, some very similar feelings.    If you get a chance to read it, DO.

I hope to update when I can.  I tried to keep everything on lock down last cycle.  My closest surro friend here didn't even know what was going on.  I hope she wasn't hurt that I didn't tell her.  I just couldn't get my hopes up after the first chemical.  Well, then to have another.  Wow!  Talk about a blow.  I can't help but feel responsible for it.  My body is suppose to be able to grow this baby, not let it go.  The guys don't really get it.  They are not women.  They tell me not to feel responsible, but its there.  No matter what.  If this cycle doesn't go the way its suppose to, then I am done with TS.
So, with that, I may or may not be chatting this cycle.  LOL  I may spill every detail to your guys, or I may just update afterwards with whats going on.  :)

Love to all!!!

Monday, January 13, 2014

Fork in the road......

We have come to a fork in the road.  I have now had my 2nd chemical in a row as a TS.  With this news, I believe my TS days have come to a end.  I have a appt on Wed for a consult with Dr C, and blood work to check my FSH levels.  My poor IFs do not want to give up yet.  I can't help but feel responsible for the results we have had.

So, come Wed, it will be Dday.  If the results are as I think they will be, I will be a retired TS.  I will pursue a GS if that is the case.  I wanted 1 more pregnancy before calling it quits.

Feeling my age as of now.  :(

Love to all..