Never say never

So, I am starting out from the beginning again. Looking for IP/IPs whom I connect with. See if we mesh well with each other.

I am having a positive outlook on this. Can't let this last go around get me down. :) I have been talking to a few agencies, and independently talking to IPs also.

The weather was beautiful today. I tried to get more leaves raked up. With as many leaves are around the property, I may have them picked up by the time they start falling again. LOL

Greggs 40th Bday is coming up in March. I have deceided to try and throw him a party. Am I crazy? LOL

How is life treating you?

Fini

It's over with now. I will leave it at that. I am the bad cop, as usual.

Talking to the wall?

So, I was finally contacted by both IPs on Thursday. My IF called and my IM emailed me. He is here in the states and she is back home in Australia. I emailed them telling them how hurt I was that they hadn't contacted me in over 2 wks. To even check on me to make sure I was ok. Just a simple email would of been fine.
She emailed me back stating IF was suppose to check on me. They have been busy. Yada yada yada.

I emailed her back Friday around noon. Telling them that if they want to make this work, she needs to be more involved. If this isn't possible, let me know, and we will part ways. Well, I still haven't heard from them. At this point, I just have to laugh. I don't know, I guess my idea of keeping in touch and theirs are 2 different things.

I have been contacted by a few couples so we shall see what happens. I have also been looking at trying GS again. I love TS. I love the closeness that brings 2 families together. I like not taking meds. LOL The past couples I have worked with have been amazing at keeping things as they said they would. Maybe I have pushed my luck to far. Seems my surrogacy karma is in the toilet right now.

Love to all. xoxo

No such thing as secret anymore?

You know, you think I would of learned by now. If there are things you do not want other people to know, just keep them to yourself. There are people I thought I could trust with my deepest thoughts on certain subjects. Only to hear those thoughts come from another persons mouth. Just priceless.

I am tired. Tired of trying to match again. I actually got a comment on my FB post, about my friend who had passed, from my IM. It said she was sorry. That is it. Haven't heard anything from them in 2 wks. Was stood up by my IF. I am really flabbergasted by this. I am still spotting from the MC. I would want to make sure my surro was ok. I was calling them every chance I got after we found out, to make sure they were ok. So, to feel left high and dry hurts. Just ugh. So, I am going to try and start again. Get things going.

I was just looking at a bunch of pictures of Aaron. I have been heartbroken for his family since I heard the news. Saturday his wife woke up without him. His kids woke up without him there. I went grocery shopping Sunday, and thought about them. Going to the store and realizing you don't have to buy certain things for your husband. I buy certain things for Gregg. He is the only one that will eat them. To realize that at the store would be so hard. I would probably break down in the store. Aarons memorial is this Sat. We will go. Hug our friends and makes sure each one knows how much we love them.

Life is so short. I don't want to spend my time being mad at people. I don't care about past grievances. In the big scheme of things its not going to matter anyways. Next time you think your snide comment is good for your self esteem, try and remember that everyone is going through some sort of pain. And just maybe its their bad day today.

Love to all!!! XOXOXO

Fri the 13th

Woke up today to news of a friend who died overnight in a motorcycle accident. He was hit just a couple blocks from his home. The details are sketchy at this time. Reports have him doing over 100 and not having any headlights on. Some of us have wondered if he was doing a wheelie.

So very sad. There is a news video out that shows quite a bit. It is heartbreaking to watch. I started crying watching it, and have had a hard time stopping.

Aaron was a great motorcycle rider. He could do things on bikes that I could only dream of.

Love your friends and family. Life is short.

Can we still be friends?

Since this post has attracted a lot of neg attention I will let it go.

Being a TS there are things you have to look at when matching. This may be a surrogacy but it is still my child. I am looking out for the future for these children.
If I decided I couldn't work with you, I tried to take your feelings to heart and break it off without hurting anyone. But, thats never really a easy task.

I know I have hurt some of you. I am sorry.